AM I TO BE BLAMED!! OR THE SYSTEM!! I AM THE SAME, IN FACT,
LIKE ALL SAID, I TRIED NOT TO REPEAT AND TRIED TO LEARN FROM MY FAILURE EACH TIME I NEEDED TO, THEN?
WHAT WENT WRONG?
IS IT TO BE FELT ASHAMED OR ANALYSE TO SEE?
IS IT BECAUSE I
AM AN EDUCATED WOMAN, DOING THINGS HONESTLY, SINCERELY WITH HARD WORK, HAVING
PRINCIPLES; IMPLEMENTING REGULATORY SYSTEMS!!
OR I AM NOT “FITTING INTO
THE RAT-RACE SYSTEM” AS THEY ALL PUT IT
I AM NOT ONE AMONGST THEM, I AM
BEHAVING “INDEPENDENT” AND DOESN'T GO AHEAD WITH THEM FOR ALL THOSE “WRONG
PRACTICES” THEY FOLLOW!!, I DON'T SIGN THE “NON-SYSTEM” RELATED MATERIAL!!
SO I
AM PUNISHED BY “MANAGING OUT”? I DON’T KNOW!!
BUT I HEARD THAT IT IS A PROBLEM IF YOU KNOW MORE!! ALSO IF YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!! EITHER WAY YOU DON'T FIT-IN TO THE SYSTEM!! YOU ARE ELIMINATED!!
Before
taking up officially some technical jobs in industry:
During
my education I must have earned reasonably good amount of money (1983 to
2000) as a researcher for sustenance. Iranian
local currency, some other fellowship amounts as research associate and as a teaching faculty at Pune university for a short while.
Let us just take the case of each company individually and see the nature of the company, the way the head of that company took it forward, how was i managed out.
NATURE OF COMPANY:
Company 1: (Sep 2000 to Dec 2003): The boss is a self-made man – a person to whom I still hold in very high regard for his
achievements and good nature - Very quick, understanding, spots talent in a
jiffy, attracts them and gives employment immediately with a good pay and
heart. Encourages them to show their
talent, hears their words, encourages independence. Then after he thinks he has used all your
skills in the next 3-4 yrs he will ‘manage you out’ (I didn’t know this word
then. Also he was very well known for this
it seems, someone known to us and close to him in his older company told us
after I came out) of the company, because he doesnot want to pay you
more or promote you to higher position, because you are independent, innovative
and talented. I was young, bubbling with
energy to do work, very naïve and did not know the ways of the world, it was my
first job, I was ‘pure’ hearted with enthusiasm to work and did not know the
‘office politics’; ‘using people’; ‘use them as doormates’ etc. Unaware of all this I was a ‘victim’ of the
‘so called created system’. As per
professional behavior or MNC behavior they will need to give the opportunity
for ‘growth’, which they don’t do in this kind of private family set-up.
Company 2: (Jun 2004- May
2005): Head is a National
Young Scientist for discovering something and was funded by foreign
collaborators. He does not trust anyone.
He sees everyone suspiciously. Does not
want you to know anything about his work, while taking FTIR peaks, I said these
must be –CO peaks, these due to –NH2 etc when he asked. He thought I know what that compound is. I said they are due to functional groups and
are common, you can predict a compound by seeing these peaks due to functional
groups. But you need more data to
conclude the compound. He saw that I was
intelligent and would probably understand his work, he said go home and sit, I
will call you. He sent me 3 months salary
just by making me sit at home (I should be available ready, he may call anytime
of the day was the instruction. I must
not take outside calls also. He said
keep reading some scientific books). I
should have sat like that only, sometimes I feel, now. Instead I said I cannot take money without
doing any work. So I refused to continue
to work with him. He called again and
spoke to me after ten years, this means, he acknowledged my independence and
self-respect.
Company 3: (Nov 2006 to Nov 2010): This is where I worked the most of my time
with some dignity. I was invited and
taken by MD and he treated me well, definitely better than anyone else
till now. His nephew took over the
company and that spoilt everything. I
should have handled it better. I wanted
that they pay me more salary, I would leave my college job (June 2006 to May
2012, did not work in Jun 2009-Jun 2010) and come. A dialogue before doing it
would have done better. I simply assumed
from earlier talk and continued and so they paid less than I expected, while
they paid much more to a junior. I
walked away thinking I got a good job.
Alas! This was my error.
Company 4: (Dec 2010): I was there for
one month only. The man is ‘mad’ and
dangerous. He put all employees in a
jail type of atmosphere and there is no freedom. All CC-cameras and sound system for him to
hear what we talk. Without any
appointment order I went and went through horror the 25 days of the month. I myself walked out, even after he asked me
to come also.
Company 5: (Mar 2013-Feb-2014): Director. If only I supported
him with the chemistry and worked against another senior scientist, by not putting his name
in the paper, I think senior scientist played games, when we went to Bangalore for
director getting an award, we missed the train and got delayed and went late for his
award function. As we were all not
there, he was very angry. Only the person who took over me remained there, didn’t go with us all entire staff. Director was angry only with me, all played
it together. He called and said either
you resign or I have to ask you to go, so I had to quit, he did not listen to
anything I was telling, it was not my fault.
Company 6:
(April
2014 – Nov 2014): Fertilizer
manufacturing company. Son is running it. Established a in-house testing
laboratory. But the father was very
possessive and felt I am grabbing his ‘empire’ from his son. Because son asked me to do some R&D work
and so old man thought I am able to get the technology to make the fertilizers,
so I may grab the technology away from his son.
Meanwhile got job and so left the place.
Company 7: (Dec 2014 –
Apr 2017): Director was
very ambitious to grow using your talent, he did not give any authority, only responsibility. He would learn from you by observing your style of work, keep you under surveillance 24x7, and grab the situation. As the authority is with him, he would make you do the work and simply project it as his, if it is positive result. If it is negative result, he will say she has done it. He in fact introduced me to the new India head as, I told you, this is the lady. So, i don't know, what he told. It was a clear case of "gender harassment", without any proof. If I say this, my husband only told me, I am imagining things. He replaced all works that i am asked to do, start with some other "woman", who is paid suitably for that. He distributed everything from me to one by one to each one of them and finally said, they are doing know, so what are you doing? Nothing, we don't need you, exactly like in Job No:1. Just think - what is your cadre, what is your rank, be grateful, he gave you a job, when you didn't have one. Few smaller jobs to lower rank women, a few higher jobs to those younger women who are paid more than I, purposely, paid much lower.
So without anyone to do the work, alone I had
to do a lot of work, almost more than 4-5 people work. So it was very bad experience. On the contrary he used all ‘bad practices’
in the name of management. To take leave
you have to hesitate, to talk you have to think, to listen you have to see
around, he just dictated works, gave unreasonable targets, he stole all work
from you by manipulating people around you, they will have to listen to him as
he is paying them or giving leave to them.
He simply ‘managed me out’ by keeping two highly paid men around him to
satisfy his ‘ego’ that such high paid, high profile men are reporting to him.
Company 8:
(Jun 2017 to Jul 2018): Did everything as if it is my own, as he was
very good initially and said nothing can be done without you. But deceived in all respects – emotionally,
personally and professionally, took away everything and said everything is done
by him.
Could earn
approximately – satisfactory
Dream to earn same as many contemporary friends per month, not fulfilled.
Dream to own my own organization, not fulfilled.
Good family – nice and very good husband, beautiful
children.
If I worked as a professor at Univ of Pune from Nov
1996 till I am 60 yrs (Jan 25th 2020). I would have earned same as what i earned now, but I wouldn't have had the variety and essence of jobs that i did and NO monotony.
MY OWN NATURE:
I am very talented, independent, innovative, very
quick in execution and implementation of what is told by the management. Sometimes does not understand what they mean due to being ‘naïve’, innocent, not worldly-wide, ignorant, stubborn? etc.
They may not want me to actually implement, since I
don’t understand, I immediately do it to their dismay. So they decide I am a ‘fool’ or ‘idiot’ maybe. This I am saying now because my mom
told me when she was a child my grandma would say to her, when she returned
from playing after school very late, sarcastically “why didn’t you play longer
and come”. Then she would feel so happy
that her mom asked her to play longer, she would run and go to play. Her mom would give her good beating for that. Is this being ‘ignorant’ ‘foolish’ or
‘idiotic’ I don’t know. May be I am also like that?? Not sure.
I think, as Ram put it, it must be my talk sometimes
when I am frustrated, or sometimes unmindful, sometimes sarcastic, sometimes
without thinking as Sam says……. My unintentional opposition words against the
management – basically criticism, which they heard from someone and did not
like it. I believed and shared my
thoughts with someone untrustworthy or they used it for their own gains. These could be possible.
CIRCUSTANCES AROUND:
Normally, since the companies that I have worked are
all ‘one-man ‘ established, they have their own persons at all top positions,
so the system is home-made. They are all
one and I am usually ‘used’ like a ‘doormat’.
CONSEQUENCES:
Fire me out or manage me out
TIME OF FIRING?
Always it was unexpected or when I was given ‘leave of
absence’ willingly and then upon return asked to go as I have not kept to the
policies, rules and regulations of the company.
NATURE OF HUMANS AND THEIR THOUGHT PROCESS:
NATURE OF BOSS:
Very cunning, sweet to talk, but does behind, shows me
wrong by actually what he is doing is wrong.
So they will frame situations on me by taking the help from other
employee who is my rival. Very unethical, unprincipled, but that is the way of life. They will promote their own people and use you. Pay you very little, learn from your way of doing things and just throw you out.
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